An update, before the addition

Happy Easter to all. We hope that our friends and family had a fabulous weekend!! Saturday, we went to the primary activity( a little lame) and then we waited for the washer and dryer, as seen in previous blog. Sunday was hectic as always. Even though Nick didn't have meetings, I still felt rushed. The kids looked amazing in their new Easter clothes. Bosston looked especially sharp in his sport coat and even was strutting his stuff around the house. After dinner we had a ham dinner and then Nick had to go to work. Lame night shift. That is over for the time being.
Monday was another crazy day just getting the house ready for my family to get here. They finally arrived and the kids were overjoyed. So far, so good.

I must say today has been a little struggle for me. This morning, I found myself on my bedroom floor, (trying to figure what clothes to wear one last time) when Bosston came and sat on my lap. Instant tears. I just realized at that moment, he was no longer my baby. I have to admit this pregnancy has not been like my last three. I loved all of them, don't get me wrong, but for the longest time I have been so content with three children, and now that is going to change. With every new thing in life comes the question, "can I do it?" "can I handle it?" "what am I going to do?" Thankfully, my mom is here, and if any of you know my mom, she just sat on the floor, reassured me that I CAN DO IT, and of course, cried with me.
I have felt overwhelmed, exhausted, over anxious, excited, nervous, scared, panicked, loved and happy. I am so blessed to have my dear husband who supports all my crazy antics. He has put up with a lot lately, and yes, there is more to come. He has been up late at night with me, given into all my cravings, and just been there to let me vent, and cry. To my dear sweet children. How grateful I am to be your mom. Heavenly Father knew I could do it, and I am so thankful that I have and that you chose me to be your mommy. It has been tough, but with tough times come better times. Dasher is such a great big brother, who lately has stepped up to the plate to run errands around the house for me. Emmah, who is actually happy to have a little sister to dress up and snuggle with. Bosston, oh my, what can I say. I have loved you from the very beginning, and I mean the VERY beginning. And now to my dear sweet Lucy. I pray that you will feel the spirit in our home. You are leaving perfection to come to this Earth at this time. We pray for your safe arrival, and that all will just fall into place. I do love you my sweet daughter. I promise to be the best mommy to you. I only hope that you love and appreciate all that we can do for you.
Well, there we go. Next time, pictures and details..........